Ragu...???

Assalamualaikum....
hye diary......
hmmm...syeira ngh buntu skrg ni......
diary nk tw???
syeira xtw la...sjk2 ni ati syeira d serang perasaan ragu je.....
sume nye sbb CINTA.....
syeira salu pk yg syeira ni hya bayangan org lain je.....
sbb syeira tw yg dy masih syg kn lagi ex girlfren dy.....
mmg sush nk lupe kn org yg kte syg.....syeira tw....
syeira tw sume 2.....tp.....hmm....dy tw x ape yg syeira rase...???
dy cte mcm2 kt syeira psl dy ngn ex dy dlu.....syeira dgr je....
syeira xksh....syeira tw sbnrnye dy nk luahkn ape yg tsmpn d hati.....
dlm mse yg sme syeira tw, dy msih ingtkn ex dy......tp....dy tw xsbnrnya hati syeira terguris...???
hmm......syeira xsgka sbnrnye....tp 2 sume da lepas...xpe...syeira wt dek je....
Tp....1 ari syeira tye dy...dy syg syeira x?dy jwp...'mstla b sygkn syg'
syeira tye ag...byk mne syg 2?dy jwp..'byk pasir yg ade d pantai'...
then,syeira tye ag, ezati???pas2 dy jwp....' sbnrnye bnd ni syg kne tw...b bkn nk kcewe kn syg tp b xnk hbgn kte retak sbbkn bnd ni....erm,sbnrnye b msh syg kn dy'.....
ble syeira bce je msj 2....Ya Allah!hya tuhan yg tahu.......sesak nafas pun ade.....
syeira xbleh tdo mlm 2....1 ari syeira nangis.....cdy sgt....
syeira tw...perasaan org xbleh dpakse.....hmm.....
dr ari 2...ati ak sntiase cdy....tp ak salu bdoa supaya ak kuat....
syeira ade tye jgk...lau jmp syeira salu ingtkn ex ke?dy kte kdg 2 ade....
dy kte muke syeira sbijik cm muke ex....tp bg ak x pun.....
urm...ak xsme ngn dy!!....lau bleh ak nk ckp kt yg ak ngn ex xsme....
ak xbleh wt ape yg dy nk...mcm ex wt...
ak ade pndirian ak...ak ade maruah...ak xnk malu kn umi ngn ayah........
ak xnk tgk dorg nangis sbb prangi buruk ak....ak xnkkk!!!!
fuhhhh....!!!
xpe.....skrg ni,syeira kne kuat utk hadapi bnd ni.....